Set Goals…Continue to be Uncomfortable
Kim is another one of my trainers at Bloomfield Fit Body Bootcamp (FBBC) who has become a friend and mentor. I have witnessed her journey and have been so inspired by her strength and resilience. She is just another woman who inspires me and encourages me to keep moving forward on my healthy living journey.
How has working out and eating healthy changed your life?
So, I have always worked out, but have never enjoyed it as much as I have, since being at FBBC. For the food part, eating healthy was always where I fell short. I felt for as long as I can remember, that food was something that needed to be “earned”. I think that is why I always gravitated towards unhealthy options… because I “earned” them. When I started at FBBC, everything came together for me, specifically during our Game Changer Challenge. I started to understand what people meant when they would refer to their bodies as machines and food as the fuel. I realized very early on, that I was not even giving myself a chance in terms of what my body and mind for that matter, were capable of. That was the exact moment when I decided to apply and see if I could be a part of the first Game Changer.
Since connecting eating food that really serves my body in the best way possible and doing workouts that make me stronger every day, I feel so much more in control of my life. It amazes me how it all translates. Since getting control over my nutrition and continuing to push myself in the gym, everything in my life has improved and expanded. It sounds sort of sad to me now, but I actually have self-worth because of all it. I don’t think I ever realized how much I was lacking that before. I can see it with everything, particularly when it comes to deciding who, and what deserves my energy. Because I value myself more and because I am choosier with who and what gets my energy, I can bring all of me into things and not just these random broken pieces. I am still VERY much a work in progress. However, over the last few years of being diligent with respecting myself enough to actually show up for ME, I feel like every day really is an opportunity to be a better version of myself, than I was the day before. And while I have a long way to go still, when I get frustrated with myself, I try to look back at what I have been able to accomplish and that makes me smile and want to keep trudging forward on the tougher days because I finally KNOW I am worth it.
Rachel is one of my trainers at Bloomfield Fit Body Bootcamp and someone who has become a dear friend of mine. She changed my life over 3 years ago and introduced me so many things and really has taught me about be a strong and healthy woman both physically and mentally. Glad to be a part of her tribe and to see her vision of fitness and woman empowerment manifest.
What was a challenge you have faced during your weight loss journey…how did you overcome it?
“A challenge I faced during my weight loss journey was an unexpected, severe hormone imbalance. As much as we all like to believe the old, simplistic way of thinking about weight loss – calories in vs calories out – It’s WAY more complex than that, especially for women. I was an athlete my whole life, so I KNEW what to do to lose weight. But all of a sudden I found myself in my mid-twenties working a high stress job with little work/life balance, terribly uncomfortable in my skin. When the strategies that used to work (cardio and restrictive dieting), stopped working to the tune of about 40 extra pounds, I reached out to my primary care physician. I was told that gaining weight was part of aging and part of a sedentary job. Just for the record folks, if your doctor gives you an answer like that… It’s time to find a new doctor! On top of the weight gain, I had started getting regular headaches and chest pains that wouldn’t go away. This went on for months with no help from my doctor other than writing me a prescription for Xanax (after I repeatedly told him I wasn’t interested in pharmaceuticals). Finally my body reached it’s breaking point. I was rushed to the emergency room in Boston when my chest tightened up so much that I couldn’t breathe and my left arm went numb. In the ER I was treated for a heart attack….at 27 years old. I remember thinking – This CAN’T be real! After a number of tests, the doctors concluded that I had been having chronic panic attacks one directly into the next for months because I wouldn’t slow down long enough to address them. They told me if I didn’t find a doctor that could work with me, that my next step really would be a heart attack.
That’s when I found a naturopath that helped me get ME back. The very first thing they ordered was blood work (a full hormone panel to be specific). My primary care had NEVER asked about blood work, or nutrition. Come to find out, most primary care doctor’s don’t know how to read a hormone panel or have much of a background in nutrition(so now it all makes sense). The blood work gave us ALL the answers we needed. My cortisol levels were off the charts. It was time to get my stress in check – my life actually depended on it. I started a morning routine of journaling. I started an evening routine of herbal tea and a bath before bed to calm myself down from the day. I walked away from non-stop cardio, and started strength training 3-4 times a week along with yoga. I tried a few different all natural adaptogens until I found the one that worked best for me (ACTS by TLS). I also let go of the negative influences and relationships in my life that were contributing to the overwhelming amount of stress and replaced them with positive, nourishing influences and relationships. Today I am VERY intentional and selective with my energy and my time. With the right combination of stress management, supplementation, nutrition, and efficient, intelligent training my body and more importantly my health and sanity came back!
Today I own and operate a thriving fitness center that specializes in strength, conditioning, and sane, sustainable nutrition strategies. I train close to 200 clients, many of them women that constantly beat themselves up for not doing enough, when in reality they’re doing too much. It’s been amazing to have the chance to share my story and pass along the knowledge I’ve gained around hormone imbalances, overtraining, under-recovery and to be able to enlist the help of resources available to truly treat the issue instead of masking it with pharmaceuticals. Nothing makes me happier than helping my clients find the perfect regimen for them that gets them the results they crave while living a life they love!
When life gets in the way of life. When your daily burdens take the place of your daily passions. When you rather settle for the easy than fight for the hard. I know I can’t be the only one who struggles with this thing called life. There are days that are just so overwhelming, that I just get lost in the thick of it. I don’t have time to work out, heck often I don’t have time for my own thoughts. Yes I am a new mom and that takes up a lot of my time these days but I can’t say life only got hard after I had my son. The truth is life has always been a challenge. There are good days and bad days, but everyday is a challenge. Now the daily struggle for me is tackling these challenges and having the energy to tackle them. But also putting more energy into things I am passionate about.
So I bring this up because I placed a challenge on myself for the month of March. I wanted to document my challenge on this blog but my computer caught a virus (challenge). So I was posting just from my phone for the month of March. The month of March was filled with applying for new jobs while trying to respectfully severe all ties from my previous job with no working computer (challenge). So needless to say my PUSH Challenge which consisted of push ups, squats and hydration throughout the month to culminate with 50 squats, 100 push ups and 1 gallon of water to be completed in one day was a fail. I got to about week 2.5 before my daily tasks became after thoughts (challenge). This post is more of a vent session but also a reminder to myself. Life is full of obstacles but I just have remember to keep pressing forward, keep challenging myself, keep being honest with myself and holding myself accountable. No one said this process was easy but I know what I need to do and March was a struggle month for me. Honestly I have been in a season of struggles. But things are looking up and I know everything happens for a reason. April begins my new season and new challenges. I am excited to take you on this ride called life with me.