Two years ago I prayed for strength to reach my weight loss goals and become a healthier me. I prayed that I would not be deterred and no mater the circumstance I would keep going…I would encourage myself. In 2015 I was successful in staying focused on my end goal. I was making the right choices for me. I had no problem saying no thank you to alcohol or food I knew would set me back. I was solid in my commitment and my results were proof of my resolve. I lost a little over 30 pounds and felt great. But 2016 came and that dedicated and determined girl turned complacent and inconsistent.
2016 had its peaks and downfalls. I gained and I lost. I had a few injuries.There were points that I was in the best shape of my life and in the same breath reverted back to my old habits. Here is the thing I know I am hard on myself, who isn’t?!?! But I tried to remain positive even when I didn’t feel positive. Even looking at my past blog posts they were all posts to encourage me, to combat all those self-deprecating thoughts I had throughout the year. But if I am honest they weren’t really working. Not that I have ever given up completely, but I have been struggling. I have been struggling to find and resurrect the girl from 2015 that wouldn’t let anyone and anything stop her. The scary thing is I don’t even know when she left. I think it was gradual so much so that I didn’t notice until it was too late.
So now at the beginning of 2017 I am starting anew. Not from scratch because I never really quit. I just need to refocus and gain back my resolve. My why is still to prove to myself that I can do it and reach my goals.Life is funny sometimes with the experiences you go through and the lessons you learn. 2016 was a year of self-doubt and lessons learned . 2017 will be year of self affirmations, progressions and action taken.
P.S. Thank you all for being on this journey with me 🙂