It has taken me almost 3 weeks to write this because I really needed to gather my thoughts. In a previous post I mentioned that I was under construction and doing an intense 8 week challenge with my gym. What I didn’t know at the time was that this challenge would change my life, change my spirit. From 2015 to 2016 I lost about 30 pounds, posted my transformation pictures and even started this blog. I felt accomplished but then life kicked my ass. Life was like nope. I packed all my weight back on and then I got pregnant and packed even more weight on. I was beating myself up like how did you get back here?
WELP nowadays I am all about reality checks. I got back there because while my weight loss journey physically I had met my milestones mentally I hadn’t even begun. I hated my body and was stressed beyond belief. I was in a toxic work environment, had family drama and the list goes on. I wasn’t prepared or willing to deal with myself emotionally. Well this challenge called the GAME CHANGER made me deal with beyond the physical. I had to address things that I was avoiding and keeping to myself. I thought those were all my burdens to bear but really those burdens were hindering me, hindering my weight loss journey, better said my healthy life journey.
So almost 3 months ago I can say I avoided mirror. Wasn’t that I hated what I saw, I was numb to what I saw. I felt nothing. I would see only negative things like O there goes another pimple. But now I challenge my mirror to try to make me feel any less than great. People have asked how did I lose all of this weight and it was a lot of work. It was hard. But I took a long look in the mirror and demanded something different for myself. When you decide you want something different and will do any and everything to get it you will get there.